i think im just going to go for it and say yes...

but if i do then i won't be here anymore

i'll have to move away from my family

and friends....not that my friends would really care anyways but still

i just don't know what exactly to do anymore

spending new years in savannah...hopefully it will be worth the time and effort

next week i've got to go into work at 5am to orderfill and hopefully i'll be christmas eve

*fingers crossed*

i dunno what to anymore

im just not good enough

i don't know if i ever will be either

im losing him

sometimes it feels like he is pushing me away

and that hurts more than anything in the world right now

i can't take it anymore

all i want to do is cry now

i wish i knew what he wanted

i just don't feel that its me anymore

it could be just my mind jumping to conclusions

which i hope it is but still

im hurting

kim is confused

maybe my mom is right

i have commitment issues hmmm